tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-53784392011-04-21T11:50:12.577-07:00once i had the rarest rose that ever deigned to bloom cruel winter chilled the bud and took my flower too soon joannoreply@blogger.comBlogger1541100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1145876099085998202006-04-24T03:51:00.000-07:002006-04-24T18:41:06.906-07:00

hey my friends are setting up a blog for me.please don't tag here anymore because the tags will be automatically deleted aft some time and i won't be able to read them anymore.so if there's anything you guys want to say to me, leave a comment on this blog:http://joanchanshufang.blogspot.comthanks alot

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1143018493622328752006-03-22T00:59:00.000-08:002006-03-22T01:08:13.636-08:00

hey guys this is just an update for all who wants to know how i am now. i just talked to the doctor and i asked him to be totally honest with me about my condition. Apparently there is a big patch of cancer cells on the left side and the back of my neck. it is impairing the blood flow from my face to the rest of the body that's why my face is swollen. the nerves controlling my left hand starts

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1142824703366373952006-03-19T19:07:00.000-08:002006-03-19T19:18:23.376-08:00

good job. my mom is like super pissed right now. cos eddie just broke this miniature statue of mother mary that was on my table in order to get to this vase of flowers. he has this obsession with flowers. don't ask me why but every someone buys me flowers he must bite them. HUA CHI. Urps haha. yesterday clarissa bought me this toy dog that is super soft and huggable. and guess what...eddie hates

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1142656033580490762006-03-17T20:25:00.000-08:002006-03-17T20:27:13.593-08:00

i received a call from the smu admin yesterday. been shortlisted for an interview with the school of econs but the interview's next thurs! how am i going to go??? i can barely sit up for more than 5 mins without a proper headrest. plus the speech problem. hmmm god help me. I offer everything up to you and i know you will take care of me

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1142473029439183912006-03-15T17:27:00.000-08:002006-03-15T17:37:09.450-08:00

how great is the grace of God! For the past 2 days, I have so blinded by fear that my condition will get worse. I was basically in a state of panic. I couldn't stop crying and lamenting over my sure death or so it seemed. I kept crying out to the lord to keep me here on earth, to let me serve him here more. But the report yesterday I got was not a bad one. The doctor said although the tumour did

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1142316030107969982006-03-13T22:00:00.000-08:002006-03-13T22:04:08.610-08:00

ok guys im getting my report back tmr...im scared to death. even though i really believe that this medicine is brought to me by the lord himself, im still really worried. i can't help it. lord, i pray that you don't take me away so soon. lord please let me live. let me get well. i want to serve you and all the others who have helped me. Lord please have mercy on me. hear my prayers and all my

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1128615148982483212005-10-06T09:00:00.000-07:002005-10-06T09:12:28.990-07:00

im starting to look forward to the malaysia trip that is just 3 weeks away. 6 days of pure shopping, sunbathing, eating and did i mention shopping? haha yup and the best part is we'll be staying at my uncle's wonderful new house which has a *gasp* rooftop garden. haha rooftop sunbathing and barbecuing here i come! this also brings the additional benefit of having all accomodations and meals free

joannoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1128438315431043632005-10-04T07:44:00.000-07:002005-10-04T08:07:51.853-07:00

after everything, i just feel so old. i may not even be twenty yet but my heart feels like it's eighty. i wish i was wendy. taken away by peter pan to never never land. where days are filled with flying, pirates and the innocence of childhood. or just let me be that girl who was so happy to receive the beautiful peter pan book on her 8th birthday again. i can't say that my childhood was filled

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1127835602217502352005-09-27T08:29:00.000-07:002005-09-27T08:40:02.223-07:00

i seem to have a love/hate relationship with every single thing nowadays. had a real depressing session with the dentist yesterday. i don't even want to mention it here. it affects me too much to be mentioned here. yeah, i know how all of you don't blog about things that truly, deeply affect you. well, at least not specifically. spent the whole day moping at home. mom didn't give good news either

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1127372289673943912005-09-21T23:50:00.000-07:002005-09-22T00:16:26.540-07:00

yesterday was truly an all ladies event haha first was lunch with the softballers, cos puee is flying this sat all the way to uk! had lunch at the new fish and co at wheelock, it was totally empty which was kinda weird cos we were the only 4 pple freezing in that place which overlooks the place where they found the limbs and head of that maid. what a way to work up an appetite ha. anyway it was

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1127201931854332082005-09-20T00:35:00.000-07:002005-09-20T00:44:30.336-07:00

piggin out at nydc! dinner at essential brewhaha, babes!here's my brother and his girlfriend (and i repeat he doesn't look like me!)

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1127177279849823772005-09-19T17:20:00.000-07:002005-09-19T17:51:41.233-07:00

ARGH!!! i've been engaged in serious battle with my pc for the last god knows how many months but im seriously feeling the fatigue, the helplessness and many other emotions that stems from my human nature when pitted against the not-so-human computer. you don't understand, it has really gone absolutely mad, insane, beyond comprehension, whatever. it restarts all the time by itself, windows

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1127126737032384162005-09-19T03:34:00.000-07:002005-09-19T03:47:14.873-07:00

yup guys, back after a really long hiatus. anyway it's currently september 2005, 10 months after my a levels. looking back this period of time has been so eventful such that i think it might equal to another's life story. well here's a short recap:nov 2004 - end of a levelsdec 2004 - prom, start work at chinablackjan 2005 - got a boyfriendfeb 2005 - got cancermar 2005 - got chemotherapy and

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1115656974806008822005-05-09T09:37:00.000-07:002005-05-09T09:42:54.883-07:00

i feel like im drifting in a sea of nothingness, like a victim of a shipwreck. treatment's over. technically, everything's over. although it's supposed to be a good thing, but im left with a very strong feeling of 'now what'. during treatment, all i could think about was the end of it. now that it has arrived, i find myself somewhat lost. now that i have space in my brain to actually think,

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1114526406563190532005-04-26T07:26:00.000-07:002005-04-26T07:40:06.563-07:00

that's right, 3 more days before this shit finally ends. 3 more days to the start of the road to normal hood. i wonder if i'll ever have that again. i've gotten so used to the life of avoiding the stares of strangers, i wonder if i'll ever hold my head up high again. i hate to admit this but cancer has really taken a lot out of me. i'm like a shadow of the person i used to be. so much uncertainty

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1114180348841041492005-04-22T07:10:00.000-07:002005-04-22T07:32:28.843-07:00

in the darkness of my room, i sat myself down in front of the computer, determined to write something on this blog. but as i stared at the create-a-post page, i realised that i have absolutely nothing that i want to write about. determined to overcome this mental block, i decided to go blog-surfing, to see what my friends had to say on theirs. after reading many, many entries on their colourful,

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1114006716833790202005-04-20T06:50:00.000-07:002005-04-20T07:18:36.836-07:00

after watching several seasons of sex and the city(all thanks to clara), i realised anything that can go wrong goes wrong in relationships. it's amazing(not in a good way) how many things can easily screw up a relationship. care too little, care too much, says too little, says too much, right person, wrong religion, wrong look, wrong character, and god, wrong size of penis? are relationships

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1113578274556569372005-04-15T08:17:00.000-07:002005-04-15T08:18:03.883-07:00

recently, i've come to realise that the only movies i had watched are korean movies. pure coincidence, i swear, to those who are in fear that i had became a korean-sob-drama-crazy chick. alright, the first one i watched was 3iron. that was no sob drama, let me tell you. it's about this drifter who breaks into people's houses to stay in them while the owners are away and he falls in love with

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1113484365866368422005-04-14T05:43:00.000-07:002005-04-14T06:20:32.676-07:00

big eyes, porcelain skin, a delicate mouth and black hair in a straight style with bangs, almost like a china doll, there she was, in the other room. she couldn't have been more than 14 and her petite frame made her looked even younger. beautiful she was but her beauty was overshadowed by the cruel disease that was obviously tormenting her, tormenting all of us in that place. she sat in her

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1106074019049531172005-01-18T10:40:00.000-08:002005-01-18T10:47:50.326-08:00

in the still of the night as i gaze from my window at the moon in its flight my thoughts all strayed to you in the still of the night all the world is in slumber all the times without number darling when i say to you do you love me, as i love you are you my life to be, my dream come true or will this dream of mine fade out of sight like a moon growing dim, on the rim of the hill in the chill,

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1103561968153868272004-12-20T09:53:00.000-08:002004-12-20T08:59:28.153-08:00

That's right people, my all time favourite holiday is coming in 5 days time actually make that 4 since its past 12. yay! and the best part is that this year there's no after christmas blues which i usually get cos it means that school's reopening soon but guess what there's no school next year!!! the only thing that might just suck is that i'll have to work on christmas eve and christmas day...

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1100885420036458902004-11-19T09:18:00.000-08:002004-11-19T09:30:20.036-08:00

if you have the guts, say it to my face.

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1096642767471181442004-10-01T07:38:00.000-07:002004-10-01T08:01:49.363-07:00

for the sake of fun, laughter, peace and joy, we decided to lead the lifestyle of the rich and famous' wives a.k.a. the TAI TAIs for a day i.e. the pure mahjong experience. armed with a full mahjong set (courtesy of crystal) and of course, determination, we marched off to pui san's house to begin our ardous journey of becoming tai tais. the table was set, the tiles were laid out, gleaming on the

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1096552038801558562004-09-30T06:31:00.000-07:002004-09-30T06:47:18.803-07:00

staring at the half filled cups strewn everywhere, dust accumulating in thick layers, i am now sitting on the floor in my room, with the keyboard in my lap, typing about how mundane and monotonous life has become. i have become the queen of the tube aka the TV. im now hooked onto almost every single drama serials that's avaliable on tv daily. hmmm, mahjong date and class chalet tomorrow. a part

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1096370271520146232004-09-28T04:07:00.000-07:002004-09-28T04:19:30.710-07:00

i don't believe this. the a levels is spanned over 3 weeks, yet the cambridge planning commitee has to plan it this way: 9/11 - maths p1, bio p2 17/11 - econs p3, chem p2 22/11 - econs p1, econs p2, bio p3 out of the 4 subjects that i take, the 4 subjects' papers have to clash. ok cambridge right, full of smart people right. let's see 13 papers, 3 weeks = 21 days. ok minus the weekends = 6

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1096364546660417432004-09-28T02:28:00.000-07:002004-09-28T02:47:34.986-07:00

it has been a simple day, the kind that i like. away from the commotion and the hype. just sitting at home, immerse myself in music and just try to let time wash by. time wasting has become a luxury. the irony is that one actually have to allocate a certain time period specifically for wasting time. even then, you find yourself jumping up in guilt, thinking about studying, only to have to

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1096136694943563782004-09-25T11:24:00.000-07:002004-09-25T11:24:54.943-07:00

the prelims have reduced the j2s to people whose lives exist only in dual mode : study or watch TV (or any other activity that doesn't require you leaving the house). any form of human communication revolves around topics like: "hmm, maths wasn't too bad." "what did you put for question 14? A? shit." "oooh, did you watch the last episode of the Apprentice?" a friend even smsed me one day. the

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1090583769319414452004-07-23T04:54:00.000-07:002004-07-23T04:57:16.233-07:00

you gave me cold glass love you've got teeth for biting and you've bore a hole in me you and me, hot and cold you have crossed all safely while i teeter on my rope better than me and i know you are calm and symmetry and i'm an empty hole my envy of all you own i want to be a possession you dust and won't let go gentlest touch and sweetest sound, something you'll

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1089203057398156322004-07-07T05:08:00.000-07:002004-07-07T05:28:00.643-07:00

ok guys, i have decided not to go against the forces of the free market, well high demand must be met by supply, so here i am updating my blog. well let's see, the last post was from 20th june, so its been half a month. ok firstly, i didn't disappear from the face of the earth, i just appeared to be so. its something i call the 'me' time. its when i cut off all contact with any other fellow

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1087662592490867522004-06-19T09:24:00.000-07:002004-06-19T09:29:52.490-07:00

just had a very unfulfiling movie session with my brother. watched pirates of the caribbean or at least two thirds of it. urps, we didn't realise that there was a part 3 and hence didnt download it. well done, so the movie ended halfway. just at the exciting part. nevermind then, guess we'll have to continue some other day then. not in the mood for any long writing...

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1087401202263717342004-06-16T08:51:00.000-07:002004-06-19T22:59:22.956-07:00

Bum #1 It was a fine and sunny saturday afternoon. i was on my way to fix my disgusting discman who insisted on being spoilt. i walked past this uncle who was sitting on a stool outside one of the shops.uncle stares, i ignored him and continued walking uncle: hi *i was rather shocked* uncle: nice babe *even more shocked* uncle: nice butt *totally shocked* a 40+ uncle who preys on young innocent

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1087230247122345112004-06-14T09:18:00.000-07:002004-06-14T09:24:07.123-07:00

god...that must rank no 1 on the list of things i ever regretted saying...haha hey you...get the hint. love cheese by the way...nvm we have officially stepped into the 3rd week of june hols...and im officially screwed for common tests...eh and i don't care? haha must've been studying too much at the cafe...the guy actually offered me a job? haha should have agreed ah...maybe can get some extra

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1086885838876795632004-06-10T09:34:00.000-07:002004-06-10T09:43:58.876-07:00

just came back from yun's hse...totally fun to meet up with you guys again. haha had a damn loud time at her hse. haha alex was rather shocked when i called him haha and we weren't even drinking haha...had quite a good time doing stupid stuff...like trying to look like we are kissing in front of the camera...haha took loads of photos...clara pls remember to upload the photos you pig...haha too

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1086628505216056422004-06-07T10:06:00.000-07:002004-06-07T10:15:05.216-07:00

psyche up!...heh im back on track with my studying progress...cheonged 6 hrs today...although there's still much to make up for since i didn't do anything last week. physio tmr...disgusting...i can't stand all those stoopid exercises..somemore is to train up one leg only...bleagh.blasting knee...nvm its actually quite an accurate weather forecaster haha it'll ache whenever its gonna rain...gosh

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1086580581267748542004-06-06T20:46:00.000-07:002004-06-06T20:56:21.266-07:00

must revive my blog...decided that i had let it go to ruins for long enough...haha suppposed to go study today haha but im still rotting at home at this moment and i have no intention of leaving my comfort seat,die la...i am so gonna screw up my common tests but then again i don't really care haha. i wanna watch HARRY POTTER! haha harry the potter. urps but everyone seems to have watched it

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082908880059311192004-04-25T09:01:00.000-07:002004-04-25T09:05:25.373-07:00

Your Ultimate Purity Score Is... CategoryYour Score Average Self-Lovin'81.7%Never taken out of the packaging 65.1%Shamelessness92.9%Has yet to see self in mirror 79.4% Sex Drive 78.9%The Pope is envious77.8%Straightness69.6%Felt someone up once 45% Gayness 100% 83.6% Fucking Sick95.6%Refreshingly normal 90% You are 84.65% pureAverage Score: 72.7% Take The Ultimate Purity Testand

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082814923582216922004-04-24T06:55:00.000-07:002004-04-24T07:00:04.466-07:00

damn...didn't get to 'squeeze butts' today, haha. urps, lesson of the day: sleep early on the eve of a game. i went to the game today like supppppppper tired...which resulted in my blur fielding. but at least i made a good hit. heheh, or else coach will just rip my head off. well at least the next match is like 2 weeks away, can psyche up properly for it. oh ya, crystal, i hope your mouth's ok,

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082639875943416092004-04-22T06:17:00.000-07:002004-04-22T06:31:58.513-07:00

INVERSE! as the guys call it...i finally understand the true essence and spirit of that word itself. gosh, i got stuck in a situation that could only be described by that word. exasperation that forces that word out of your mouth. here's what happened. this guy ok lets call him X. i met X at a club last year, on new year's eve. well he asked to dance and stuff, and finally asked for my no. as it

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082557298245245232004-04-21T07:21:00.000-07:002004-04-21T07:25:38.216-07:00

i just realised that we have 9 more trainings left together. its so saddening, i am already missing them now. its really rare when you get a team who is always so enthusiatic about training, willing to put in extra time and effort to train. nevermind, shall just enjoy whatever time we have left to the maximum. argh, mental block, just can't think of what to blog, yet you want to blog. whatever i

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082296811782396152004-04-18T07:00:00.000-07:002004-04-18T07:04:07.733-07:00

today: 1. woke up at 9.20 2. watch tv 3. read "dead man walking" 4. sleep repeat steps 2-4 what a great life i lead

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082211856786847232004-04-17T07:24:00.000-07:002004-04-17T07:28:13.403-07:00

last night, i was on a cab, on my way home when i saw the most wonderful piece of news. the cab is one of those new models, with the teeny weeny tvs inside. well apparently i had nothing to do on the cab, so i decided to watch the programme that was showing on the tv. it was the news. "great" i thought to myself, what better way to improve my level of general knowlege than to watch the news right

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1082034926607700072004-04-15T06:15:00.000-07:002004-04-15T06:24:26.513-07:00

doc: " you have to stop all vigorous activities, i.e. no running, no jumping etc. If you get hit again, you might fracture your bone." me:" but i have a match this saturday and it's nationals. doc:" well its just too bad then." well, at least i dont have to run 2.4km now.

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081698838790022702004-04-11T08:53:00.000-07:002004-04-11T09:00:16.716-07:00

im a stubborn ass. perpetual battle between my ego and my emotions. this sorry problem of mine has caused so much shit for me. hmmm, how do you know for sure?no one can tell me the answer to that. well and the people around dont provide much inspiration anyway. well hoped i've been some help to clara, haha hopefully you can sleep well tonight girl. hmmm i think the best solution to my problem is

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081654925431765782004-04-10T20:42:00.000-07:002004-04-11T04:49:59.936-07:00

great. just great. i woke up this morning feeling like shat. can't sit walk or lie without feeling discomfort. it hurts everywhere. i found lots of bruises that appear out of nowhere. the worse is my neck i think. can't move my head too fast...like walking in water, everything its in slow motion. wonderful now i sound like some whiny prissy shit. nvm, well must say thanks to all you people who

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081520319108773212004-04-09T07:18:00.000-07:002004-04-11T04:50:19.920-07:00

ok i must say this: if you dont know anything about something, then just shut up about it. great i've been hearing stuff about our match against hc, well of which, none are true. i mean, who are you people, who know nuts about softball, to comment on the way we played. Girls lost but I don't think there's any shame in that when there's such a disparity of experience between the teams well guess

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081262965030295772004-04-06T07:49:00.000-07:002004-04-11T04:50:49.560-07:00

argh so much to do, so little time to spare. life's too short and yet i have once again chosen to spend my "precious" time online. oh well done. someone commented today that i seemed to be having insufficient sleep, well duh...everything requires my utmost attention. need more time for training need more time for homework need more time for everything. well the perfect solution would be give more

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081084474401515172004-04-04T06:14:00.000-07:002004-04-11T04:52:11.733-07:00

i think changing templates actually make me feel better. its like you surf through all the various templates and you try to feel the one that will make you feel more cheerful. whatever. i still can't get over it. half of me wants to train bloody hard just train train train and not do anything else but the other half of me just wants to give up. ever since the game ended scenes from it just kept

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1081006709872205222004-04-03T07:38:00.000-08:002004-04-03T07:42:05.543-08:00

we lost. not to anyone, not to hc, but to ourselves. we lost to our own weak mentalities. we had all of it going for us. a strong team, a united team, but we just didnt perform our best. it was no where near our best. not even close. what the hell. of all people to lose to we lost our gold medal to ourselves. its not that we need to work on our techniques and stuff, we just need to strengthen our

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080915007579626322004-04-02T06:10:00.000-08:002004-04-02T06:13:42.216-08:00

ITS TOMORROW! screw it. im gonna just heck care about everything and play the game of my life man. its the big match tmr. RAFFLES VS HWA CHONG. Psyche up!!!! psyche up psyche up psyche up. im amazed by the number of people who are actually going down tmr to watch. whoa its really exciting man...i dont want to have any regrets tmr...i dont want to think i just want to feel. feel the ball feel the

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080749242331468002004-03-31T08:07:00.000-08:002004-03-31T08:14:47.356-08:00

does symmetry means beauty. apparently the more symmetrical a face is, the more attractive it is to other humans. maybe all along we weren't looking for the so called perfect beauty but in reality, total symmetry? whatever. thought of the day: no of bruises one has is inversely proportionate to the no of days left to season. well currently i have 9 bruises and 1 dent in total on both legs, which

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080664678851552802004-03-30T08:37:00.000-08:002004-03-30T08:41:29.403-08:00

people never fail to amaze me. irregardless of in a good or bad way. well he has done it again. good for you. but guess what, im stronger than this.

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080571011855609702004-03-29T06:36:00.000-08:002004-03-29T06:45:46.780-08:00

I feel so bad now and knowing that I have a viral infection does not really help. The I-think-I-Look-good-with-a-tie doctor told me that I have an ulcer on my throat passage and of course the infamous: viral infection. Does that sound familiar? How many times have we all, the poor normal people who are just not too interested in probing into the profound area of medicine or maybe we are just

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080387793670849372004-03-27T03:43:00.000-08:002004-03-27T03:46:39.780-08:00

god i feel so bad now...im damn sick...like half puking half choking at the same time...so helpless...no one's at home except me. my mom came back for like 2 hrs just now...but all she did was sleep in her own room...didnt even ask abt me at all...i mean its fine normally..but i've been damn sick since yesterday and its like no one cares even if i die in my own room. i didnt even had the strength

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080216766743197082004-03-25T04:12:00.000-08:002004-03-25T04:16:10.653-08:00

screw the government! first they kill all the cats...then they are on this rat-killing rampage now...its not like i love rats or something like that...but its just that fogging the rat holes leads to only one outcome...the rats come out la!...god they are everywhere and i mean everywhere!!!!!my brother and i were like walking to dinner that day when we got confronted by 3 mega rats...i mean they

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1080047740110798692004-03-23T05:15:00.000-08:002004-03-23T05:19:01.483-08:00

WE ARE PLAYING HC NEXT SAT...damn it la...so much for wanting to psyche up...somemore this bomb shell must drop on my birthday somemore...wonderful...this match seriously means a lot...it'll be the best birthday present ill ever have if we all win...we have to...ill pray every night man...and my knee is like hurting like shit....pls dont die on me now...not now...psyche up tmr training...i hope

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1079930215369028512004-03-21T20:36:00.000-08:002004-03-21T20:40:14.733-08:00

WE ARE GONNA SMACK HC AND VJ...i dont care we must smack their ass...crush them flat...and trample over them...we can do it...just need to psyche up batting...smack home runs...throw them out at every base...haha we are gonna be double champs this year...must make it come true...should make it our team chant or something...i believe we can...we are all damn psyche up now esp after losing to hc 5-

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1079799258027782922004-03-20T08:14:00.000-08:002004-03-20T08:17:35.606-08:00

whoa...just watched this anime about vampires...damn cool its called hell sing...but ghost in a shell is still the best...yep ha so happy for my bro...dont have to go back to tekong...since the 2 robbers are finally caught...really stoopid know...to hide on tekong with like 5000 pple with guns bigger than yours...urps nvm tmr is the last match...we are playing hc...i really think we can win real

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1077895179869105712004-02-27T07:19:00.000-08:002004-02-27T07:22:28.280-08:00

haha yep ok guys this is historic...its almost a miracle...i actually like one of britney im-so-cute spears' songs...yep its called toxic...its actually nice...WOW haha yup anyway alex thinks that the mtv's damn hot...whatever...ran today but not for very long...cos my blardy nose's stuck like a cork in a bottle...off off off totally off whatever man my headache's better though...hope i'll better

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1077793353167769812004-02-26T03:02:00.000-08:002004-02-26T03:05:20.200-08:00

i think my cat has just pee-ed in my room...wonderful...just to add on to my disgusting day right...today was judgement day man...chem test...organic chem gives me goosebumps...if i see one more benzene ring...i think ill probably go drown myself in a bucket of benzene and die of cancer immeadiately...whatever...at least its over. went to the gym just now...found a new way to cure flu! running

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1077460671929040802004-02-22T06:37:00.000-08:002004-02-22T06:45:25.466-08:00

i dont like this week...its chem madness! QA test on tues, lecture test on thurs, and with that sneaky surprise arenes and R-X test that mr yeo has been trying to spring all staring menacingly at me this week...im beginning to wonder whether i should just take 1 sub which is enough to kill me. and to add on to it...im sick today! wth spoilt my perfect plan of mugging...it was supposed to be

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1069603254061918642003-11-23T08:00:00.000-08:002003-11-23T08:01:35.000-08:00

How many heartaches must i stand Before i find the love to let me live again Right now the only thing That keeps me hanging on When i feel my strength It's almost gone I remember mama said You can't hurry love No you'll just have to wait She said love don't come easy It's a game of give and take How long must i wait How much more must i take Before loneliness, will cause my Heart, heart to break

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1069142436946766232003-11-18T00:00:00.000-08:002003-11-18T00:01:10.890-08:00

its pouring as if the sky has never cried before...totally destroyed my plans of swimming or going anywhere else...suddenly regretting the decision of my refusal to go to RTC for a spa...hmmm should have said yes...then i wouldnt be wallowing in boredom that is neck high in my room. maybe i shouldnt dye my hair after seeing mdm teng scolding bapok...hmmm or at least wait till SATS are over.

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1069000860810999932003-11-16T08:41:00.000-08:002003-11-16T08:41:25.670-08:00

its decided. finalised. this hols shall be dedicated to the sole holy purpose of self satisfaction. massages, spas, suntanning, shopping, whatever. all out man. well after all next year will be a whole year of solitude you see. well finance wise...whatever. ill think about that later ...enjoyment always comes first. yep...motto for the hols shall be indulge myself

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1068903833093113142003-11-15T05:43:00.000-08:002003-11-15T05:44:22.996-08:00

this is one of the rare times when i actually feel that time is moving slowly, which is rare, especially since it is the holidays now. big plans for this hols...wonder whether ill be able to accomplish all of them yet. nvm...at least im not disgustingly fair anymore...ha finally getting my tan back...well and i actually tried to revive this blog heh not bad for a day eh

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1068199475270286782003-11-07T02:04:00.000-08:002003-11-07T02:04:54.936-08:00

HELLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO this is a guest blogger for shufangie joanie woanie moanie loanie coanie groanie!!!!! let me sing you a song tender is the night lalalalalala lalalalala lalalalalala comeon comeon comeon comeon get to it (???) comeon comeon comeon comon love's the sweetest thing!! she loves me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! -from T.H.E.

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1064068006595599412003-09-20T07:26:00.000-07:002003-09-20T07:31:35.936-07:00

my blood runs cold just by watching how they cheapen themselves to get what they want. its disgusting its disturbing but it is also true. they use it to weave a fantasy for themselves but they are actually digging a bottomless pit for. to live in darkness so they could not see what creatures they have become. i almost couldnt recognise any trace of humanity in them. solitude is better, in this

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063459606469083892003-09-13T06:26:00.000-07:002003-09-13T06:28:07.733-07:00

stoopid arya and dawn...you guys will be condemned for being evil to cats...my cat is how cute...thank goodness you guys have no pets...oh man finally played the last game of the league...heh no more burnt weekends...no more lugging of the equipment to the far far away kallang...heh but we cant see that guy anymore so sad for dawn...nvm pray hard he comes for src...supposed to go to hwa chong for

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063375191111295542003-09-12T06:59:00.000-07:002003-09-12T07:11:56.853-07:00

i dont want to give my cat away...sigh...ill miss her like hell but its just too bad that she is too fluffy how how...dilemma my mum is so insistent...sigh at least i should be happy that im only giving her to my aunt so there will still be chances of me seeing her...sigh ill miss you oh ya and today was a rainy day

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063300121498899612003-09-11T10:08:00.000-07:002003-09-11T10:14:41.800-07:00

its been a wonderful day...almost like a dream...i dunno maybe it'll never come again...maybe it'll be cruel to taste happiness and lose it again. but for now...i just want to float in my happy thoughts...who knows...it could be a brand new start...maybe good dreams will come and the nightmares will stop...cross your fingers shouldnt hurt me to be free its what i really need to pull myself

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063210963054938962003-09-10T09:22:00.000-07:002003-09-10T09:22:44.770-07:00

somebody has been leaving me tags...tags that i dont understand...just who are you?

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063192588670378852003-09-10T04:16:00.000-07:002003-09-10T04:16:51.083-07:00

talking about love is like...dancing about architecture

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1063041135914151092003-09-08T10:12:00.000-07:002003-09-08T10:14:17.146-07:00

hmmm....havent wrote anything serious in here for a long while....its raining now...looking forward to a good night's sleep...i still miss my hair...nvm it'll grow ha using this im awesome layout to boost my own ego...nvm...its the last game this sat...seriously lookin forward to the end of the league...its been a mentally and physically tiring league...now the only thing to hope for is the end

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1062866109446013932003-09-06T09:35:00.000-07:002003-09-06T09:35:09.436-07:00

I got dosed by you and Closer than most to you and What am I supposed to do Take it away I never had it anyway Take it away and everything will be okay In you a star is born and You cut a perfect form and Someone forever warm

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1060451395077127512003-08-09T10:49:00.000-07:002003-08-09T10:52:53.556-07:00

yup its like 2 months to promos...i am highly stressed now...thanks to mrs cheang's very stressful reminder...ok shall retire and go study...need to work damn hard...like maybe i only have 1 A level pass...okok shall refrain from blogging for a while yup see ya guys!

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059842715564456012003-08-02T09:45:00.000-07:002003-08-02T09:45:15.413-07:00

Right now Face to face All my fears Pushed aside And right now I'm ready to spend the rest of my life With you

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059841807936422632003-08-02T09:30:00.000-07:002003-08-02T09:30:07.920-07:00

what a shitty day it has been...the game sucked...i dont know whether we improved or not...i only know that i felt worse today than last week...whatever...the worse thing is there's another game tmr...like wth...my whole weekend...its gone...i waited for 5 days for it to come yet it ended so soon...bleah..my hw is like undone...and there's an econs test on mon...oh no...why soon bee so enthu...

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059663011939715812003-07-31T07:50:00.000-07:002003-07-31T07:50:11.790-07:00

got my results slip back today...kinda depressing...i really want to study hard pangsai...must study...tmr there's chem test...must do well...i dun want mr yeo to think im not trying...i really want to try hard...but there are just so many things...i really really want to do well...at least i must try...must try

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059493964334294452003-07-29T08:52:00.000-07:002003-07-29T08:52:44.163-07:00

it has been a good and happy day...first of all...oh must say...BEE BEE(lee soon bee) didnt come to sch...its like amazing la...i mean she's how fit and healthy...hmmm...then played floorball during pe...instead of the usual boring kind of talks...ha...but the woman from 3m damn violent...when she has the ball...nobody dares to take from her la...mudder violent...damn scary....ha must say

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059300553675829182003-07-27T03:09:00.000-07:002003-07-27T03:09:13.656-07:00

ha im damn happy today...we played against an adult's team...and we performed damn well at least in my sense...heh first strikeout from the pitcher...first runner on base...flyball tagouts...nice stops...all these first times as a team...heh team of 2004...so happy...ha next week must psyche up again...playing on both sat and sun...playing against SIA and dunno who...im so glad...actually we are

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1059223001237423082003-07-26T05:36:00.000-07:002003-07-26T05:36:41.140-07:00

i really dont know what to say...im really sorry i didnt had a chance to say anything when i had the chance to...when i heard the news...all i could think abt in my mind was the guilt and all the things that happened in the past...all i can do is pray for her... today was rafflesian recall...ha more like rafflesian exchange...quite fun...everyone from all the sports were like going around playing

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058866800073904442003-07-22T02:40:00.000-07:002003-07-22T02:42:03.936-07:00

yep its time to study now...got back everything COFF ha...wonderful...if i get this kind of result for promos my mom will really cough to her death...bleah...yep...luckily gp B3 not so bad...my only consolation..but that's because gp is the only non mugging subject...alright really must start mugging...today didnt go to sch...fever and flu...sneezing non-stop...feel so pathetic...wearing a

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058711354375128562003-07-20T07:29:00.000-07:002003-07-20T07:29:14.300-07:00

It’s hard holding you Loving you, losing you It’s sad to be true And be fooled by you I don’t know I gotta know Should I stay or should I go

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058688257639828882003-07-20T01:04:00.000-07:002003-07-20T01:22:59.486-07:00

bleah...everyone guess what...we didnt play today...ha yep after all the psyched upness...we didnt play...ho ho ho...stoopid rain...made the field unplayable...then postponed to nxt week...ha but we are still up against combined schs...ha still die...just 1 week later only...nvm like that we have one more week to train...maybe its a blessing in disguise...ended up training at kallang today...damn

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058278719386199742003-07-15T07:18:00.000-07:002003-07-15T07:18:39.360-07:00

ok pple i know some of us are super discouraged but cannot give up hope k! we have to hang on...there's no way we are going to pull out of this...we are all in this together...if even the few of us give up...then no one will put the team together...the team has really improved alot in terms of skills and attitude...i mean pple are actually coming down early for training...and we are starting to

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058193041719968262003-07-14T07:30:00.000-07:002003-07-14T08:45:52.680-07:00

heheh watching friends now...mudder funny...heheh saw the arts fac cum A01D cheerleading today...hey pple its quite synchronised...so ha just keep working hard k...i can only offer you guys moral support...sigh tmr is super chem day....i mean like whats the prob with cheang...putting chem lec prac and tutorial together can be lethal know...aiya...nvm as usual perseverence is the key...just went

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058107097213635282003-07-13T07:38:00.000-07:002003-07-13T07:43:26.740-07:00

i tried to download the gp video just now(my mom wanted to see) in the end i stumbled upon some clips that some perverts took of rj girls in sch...i mean which sicko would do that...i didnt look at them duh...but they had titles like "real rjc rape victims 2003" and like "rj girl upskirt" like wth....i didnt know that there were pple that sick in rj...gives me goosebumps...i always thought

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1058010522313863322003-07-12T04:48:00.000-07:002003-07-12T22:33:08.320-07:00

the league is like what...next week?!@#$@^%#$^ how how how? die really die...i mean we are like so totally not prepared maybe...erm...go there get trash la...wth...the thought of putting on the awful catcher's equipment just turns me off...it has the combined sweat of all the previous catchers...girls plus guys...i mean its a miracle that it hasnt corroded my face yet...i mean this is so sudden

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057928752473064562003-07-11T06:05:00.000-07:002003-07-11T06:09:37.020-07:00

It was silly of me to believe That if I just opened my heart Things would come naturally Jokes on me I did not ask for love letters So why did you give them to me How could I let your intentions Get hold over me So in love So naive

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057850442275017552003-07-10T08:20:00.000-07:002003-07-10T08:21:23.060-07:00

i know i havent been making sense to many of you...but i guess its easier for me this way...no explicit details...the memories are mine...whatever then...i guess im going through a phase in my life...im tired of all those things....i just want a simple life where i laugh with my friends...do my work...train hard for softball...get good grades...make my parents happy...i really envy some pple...

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057765480277955352003-07-09T08:44:00.000-07:002003-07-09T08:45:39.170-07:00

I know I'm kinda strange, to you sometimes Don't always say, what's on my mind You know that I've been hurt by some guy But I don't wanna mess up this time And I really really really care And I really really really want you And I think I'm kinda scared Cos I don't want to lose you If you really really really care Then maybe you can hang through I hope you understand It's nothing to you

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057679306686678902003-07-08T08:48:00.000-07:002003-07-08T08:49:19.850-07:00

im disappointed...i truly am...i can hide it mask it in front of the crowd...but i cant hide the truth from myself...i dont understand where do i go from here? i guess i can trust no one i can depend on no one...how could he? he has hurt the both of us... Waiting for you All my sins... I said that i would pay for them if i could come back to you All my innocence is wasted on the dead and

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057570207049049902003-07-07T02:30:00.000-07:002003-07-07T03:03:40.880-07:00

So the good boys and girls take the so called right track Faded white hats Grabbing credits Maybe transfers They read all the books but they can't find the answers And all of our parents They're getting older I wonder if they've wished for anything better While in their memories Tiny tragedies They love to tell you Stay inside the lines But something's better On the other side

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057491289930231462003-07-06T04:34:00.000-07:002003-07-06T04:34:49.806-07:00

today's the 2nd day after common tests...finally had enough sleep i guess...woke up at 1pm today power ah...my eye has some problem...keeps tearing...and it hurts like dunno what...yay...tmr going to sentosa...meeting up with my rgs friends...havent seen them for so long...ha heard from gabriel that the hockey team's gonna be there too...ha maybe we'll see them there...everyone seems to be going

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057479103332904372003-07-06T01:11:00.000-07:002003-07-06T01:12:06.483-07:00

Tired of injustice Tired of the schemes The lies are disgusting So what does it mean Kicking me down I got to get up As jacked as it sounds The whole system sucks

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057418008350851612003-07-05T08:13:00.000-07:002003-07-05T08:27:50.200-07:00

When everything feels like the movies you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me Cause I don't think that they'd understand

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057404048026121922003-07-05T04:20:00.000-07:002003-07-05T05:01:56.380-07:00

i wish i didnt know abt what you did but i do...i wish i couldnt hear what you said but i can...i wish i couldnt see the truth but i can...i wish i couldnt feel the pain but i can...damn you damn you damn you i can....i bloody hell can...stop lying will you...im sick of livng in the lies you weave...how could you...i want to forget...but i can still remember the violence...the pain...the hurt...

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057259749610288552003-07-03T12:15:00.000-07:002003-07-03T12:18:21.370-07:00

argh...yes at this very moment im still muggin for bio...cannot take it...therefore im taking a break at this very moment...yep 3.04am what da hell right...thsi is the retribution for poor time management...wait till today then start...i think i wont get any sleep tonight...i still have DNA and genetics to go...oh my god...skali dont sleep also cant finish...oh even better...finish studying and

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057200491717931482003-07-02T19:48:00.000-07:002003-07-02T23:43:03.390-07:00

eversince i was a little girl..they told me not to talk to strangers...they told me not to cross the road when the red light is on...they told me to be good...and as i grew...they told me to study hard and get good grades...they told me that i should follow the rules...they they they...they told me so many things about the way of life...but what about life itself? they never told me that it'll

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057161341173666012003-07-02T08:55:00.000-07:002003-07-02T08:55:40.990-07:00

And i just wish that i didnt feel Like there was something i missed And i take back all the things i said to you And i give it all away Just to have somewhere to go to Give it all away To have someone to come home to This is my december These are my snow covered dreams This is me pretending

joannoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5378439.post-1057159899566667012003-07-02T08:31:00.000-07:002003-07-02T08:31:39.480-07:00

yep this is my own self made template...yes proven my dominance over html once and again

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